A few years back I was invited to Tagged
by a friend. It’s actually a dating site, but I was not aware of this! I
went on to Tagged to play a popular game called Pets. Pets are where
people buy each other. The Pet values increases each time they are bought;
they have assets, cash and their own value. The whole idea is to get
Tagged Ranked, to because the highest ranked player in the world. One can
buy gold to increase cash and assets. One can have online conversations
and meet many people all over the world. Tagged as a following over a
million people. Hi5 is the same as tagged. One can keep in touch
with people on tagged by using Hi5.
Every story has a starting point; I will start here with my story.......
I met a lot of people on Tagged, several
people made an impression on me, especially this one man, he will be known as
Mister Dom, giving him this name will become clearer as my story unfolds.
He seems to really care for me and showed an interest in my wellbeing.
I never took it that his interest in me had anything romantic in it.
We talked a lot on tagged and played the Pets game together, and later we
started to have conversations on WhatsApp. I really like Mister Dom very
much, he was very easy to talk to, and I enjoyed all my conversations with him.
Mister Dom is divorced; he is a father of
two. He is estranged from his children. Mister Don loves his
children with all his heart and soul. Due to the divorce, it made a rift
between his children and himself. Mister Dom is a
very intelligent man, he has a heart of gold, and he possesses everything
women could ever want in a man.
I am a single mother of two children.
Growing up has not been very easy for me. I had learning
difficulties and as a result I stopped talking, I was a child that never enjoy
the company of other kids and other people. I found from a very early age how
hurtful people could actually be. As a result I ended up carrying a lot
of unnecessary baggage.
Here is where the story really starts.
"You are a victim of your past"
types Mister Dom
"Victim?" I reply back
"Yes, you can't move past from things
of the past, they over shadow your daily life, you cannot be a survivor, if you
never deal with the past"
"By dealing with issue with the past
and come to terms with them, you will become better equipped to deal with the
future. You will become the survivor"
I was very angry with Mister Dom for
saying that, I was a fighter how he could call me a victim. What Mister
Dom said to me never properly registered for a while.
I was in a relationship with a Pakistani
at that time, the relationship was not going smoothly, and he had let me down
when my Mother passed on. The Pakistani ended our relationship on the day
my mother died. It felt that I had suffered the death of two people I
loved the most.
Mister Don knew that I was in a
relationship with this Pakistani and his comments were to me "you are his
submissive, you are his slave, and he is your master". Till that day
I had never heard of submissive (sub), master, slaves or dons for that matter.
For me, to please the person that I am in a relationship, I never have a
second thought about it.
This falls under BDMS, the master who is
the Dom and the slave the submissive or the sub. The sub will obey
her Dom at all times, when she does not obey her Dom will
punish her. Sex toys are used for mutual pleasure; there are a whole lot
of devices that are used in this play acting. It’s consensual, by
both parties. A safe word is used because some off the things did by the
don can be very painful, though the whole objective is to bring pleasure to both
parties. The sub can end it and it anytime by using this save word.
Through texting on WhatsApp, Mister Dom
became my Dom. Mister Dom is a healer of women, he makes them feel that
they are women again and he helps them get the tools, not to be a victim but a
survivor. Everything the Mister Dom said I must do, I must obey him. Mr
Dom's objectives in my case was to make me feel that I was a woman again, to
take pride in my own body, taking to wearing dresses again, not only playing
the women role but looking like a women also.
To be truthful I was a terrible sub, I was
not very obedient and I did not really understand his approach to
things. I thought at first what he was asking of me was not very nice. (That
what I thought) I kind of resented his requests and that I had to obey
them. I was not ready at this point to let go of being a victim and
become the survivor. For a while I did not hear from Mister Dom, and then
i started hearing from him again. By that time I had a better understanding
of who i was, and that the past was hurting me very much. I learned so
much about myself, I know one can love others even if one does not love me, but
it’s not ideal. I learned to forgive my parents and essentially myself.
One can hardly call it a proper Dom/sub
relationship as its long distance. I have loved him for a very long time,
love? How can one love someone whom they have not met? Well, because
there is no physical side to this relationship we have to rely on talking
more. I love him for who he is, I can't say that this love with grow if I
ever met him one day. I want to be with him, really I do, but there are
other things to take into consideration. He wants someone right now, he
does not want to wait and take time to see where a relationship would lead too.
His needs now are for a full time relationship now. He is recently
out of a relationship and I don't even know if he loved this person. He
says that he has very deep feelings for her.
I really can't tell you much happens in a Dom/sub relationship. I could tell you what happens in 50 Shades of Grey, but besides that I can't tell you, not from personal experience.
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